I've finally realized where some of the frustration that was happening last week was coming from.
Yes, a part of it was figuring out a schedule for my new life. (I've worked on that and have gotten into a very loose schedule that is working for me at the moment, but I'm sure there is plenty of re-adjusting and tweaking to be done.) But the part that wasn't so apparent last week was the fact that I just needed to be alone.
You see: Alone, for me, isn't a scary place to run away from. It's not a boring time that needs to be filled with conversation and it's not an uncomfortable situation to be avoided. Instead, it is a place, that over the years, I've made peace with. Instead of conversation, I can get lost in a good book. Instead of the uncomfortable lunch alone, I have grown to love being able to catch up on the news and check Twitter without interuption or guilt.
Does this make me un-social or a huge nerd? I would "no" to un-social and "yes" to huge nerd but I've been comfortable doing the nerd thing for a while. And while I wouldn't go so far to say I seek out "alone", I have unconsciously learned to take advantage of it when it does appear.
So yesterday, when the Mister told me that he was thinking about going on a motorcycle ride with some of his friends, I encouraged him to go. I didn't have any personal reasons; I just knew he would have a good time. As it turned out, I took Josie dog on the walk I had been telling her we would take ever since I moved up here (yes, I talk to the dog) and the alone time unexpectedly bordered on glorious. I'm not overexagerating when I say that the hour that I spent on the trails bordering a local museum allowed me to reconnect to the girl inside of me who is still a little shell-shocked by all the amazing change that has happened in her life over the past month (you know... small things: Moving away from family, Getting Engaged, General Awesomeness...)
Anyone else out there crave alone time? Are there places better than the woods to do it? What about the moms in the crowd- how in the world do you ladies make that happen?